In fact, I put on 12 kg! It was totally disgusting and my clothes changed sizes multiple times. I have reclaimed much of this now and have about 4kg to go to get back to normal. I am well on track now, but I am sitting her thinking back to “Why the hell did I do that?”.
Although I am very glad that things are going the right way for me, I look back on my behaviour and am really pondering what on Earth made me do that?
It wasn’t lack of knowledge. I think everyone knows “Eating Salad for Lunch” will help with weight loss. Everyone knows that eating lots of chocolate is a great strategy for becoming a porker.
Yet I did all the above + more. Looking back on this bad experience, I realized what I did. I didn’t have clear goals at the time and my life wasn’t going the way I wanted. Instead of just turning around and working on this and putting a plan in place, I just “Went with the flow” and:
– Did what I felt like with my eating, compared to:
– What I must do with my eating.
This screw up of mine taught me a valuable lesson in that quite often “We Know Exactly What to Do”. It’s just that when we lose focus of our life, goals or whatever it maybe and “Go With the Flow” bad stuff is likely to happen.
I then thought about this more. If you head to the Supermarket or turn on the TV or open a magazine – it’s completely amazing how much money and effort is being pushed at you to over eat or buy crap. The obvious cliche example are the Chocolate Bars at the Registers – those cunning Marketers are taking their final shot at you!
This has really got me thinking in that in our Society, there are people who are really trying hard to “Control” us to behave in way that suits them. Even if it means the destruction of our own health.
Now, I know what you are thinking (and honestly a part of me thinks like this) – that Ed is just blaming the Food Companies and is not taking responsibility. You are actually right (to a point). It’s completely my fault as I know my behaviour was destructive, but man think about it – with all the Advertising Dollar thrown at us – it’s not a very fair game! It reinforced the old lesson to me – it’s dangerous to “Go with the flow” these days.
If you don’t have your own plan and stick to it, someone (generally to your disadvantage) is only to happy to enlist you in theirs.